You keep trying.
You keep getting in your own way.
And you can't figure out why.
You might think that you are lazy, broken or that you lack discipline. But if you’ve been putting time and effort, and still you experience the same results, probably there is something deeper running in the background.
I created a free and easy course so you can find the root cause and what can you do to overcome it (which is easier than you think once you know what actually works).
Finally Understand What's Going On.
And Your First Step Forward.
Does This Sound Familiar?
You know what you should do. It just doesn't happen. You sit down to start, and suddenly you're doing everything else. Or you do start, but something derails you before the finish line. Again.
On the outside, you manage. On the inside, you're exhausted. You show up, you perform, you hold things together and push through. But inside you overthink, second-guess, and react in ways you don't fully understand. You've read the books. You understand a lot, intellectually. But understanding doesn't change how you feel and react when it happens.
The patterns keep repeating, and they don't make sense. The anxiety that shows up when things are going well. The relationships that follow a pattern you can't break. The voice that says not ready, not enough, not yet. You've tried to outthink it, outwork it, push through it.
But there it is again.
If you've gone through experiences that felt overwhelming, destabilizing, draining, or impossible to process at the time, even if they seemed ordinary to others, there's a good chance those experiences are still shaping how you react today. More than you realize.
If this sounds uncomfortably familiar, you're in the right place.
"I know what I should do. I just can't seem to actually do it.
And I don't know why."
Understanding the Root
Your nervous system is doing its job.
Just a very outdated version.
Self-sabotage isn't a decision.
It's a protection response.
Your brain filters everything through what you experienced before. It constantly scans for situations that resemble past moments of stress, threat, or overwhelm. When it finds one, even if you see no danger, it reacts automatically, before you have time to think.
That's why you can want something deeply and still pull back or experience strong emotions. Why you can promise yourself "this time will be different" and find yourself doing the same thing again.
These responses were learned. Often in moments that felt completely out of your control. Your system recorded them as survival rules, unconsciously. And those rules are still running, even now, in situations where they no longer apply.
That is why when people tell you to be more disciplined, that it is not that much just don't think about it, or that you should just push through, they do not understand how the nervous system works.
No amount of discipline or positive thinking changes a pattern that lives underneath thought.
Because it is unconscious.
The question isn't "why am I like this?"
It's: "what is my system still trying to protect me from?"
When you answer that, real change becomes possible.
These patterns are costly and grow over time.
They don't tend to improve on their own,
not because people don't try,
but because trying harder is often part of the loop itself.
Opportunity Cost
Constantly running at a fraction of your capacity, drained by managing your thoughts and emotions while performing on the outside. And still missing opportunities.
Relational Cost
Connections that don't reach the depth you want, boundaries that don't hold, a longing for something more that keeps getting delayed. Time passes but the relationship does not improve.
Identity Cost
The growing gap between where you are and who you know you could be. Living a life that doesn't fully give you what you need, that is draining instead of fulfilling.
Patterns were learnt and have a root.
When you reach the root, you can re-learn a better one.
The Self-Sabotage Map:
Discover Your Pattern and Your Way Out
I created a free course to help you break the cycle, so you can do what you expect of yourself.
The lessons are delivered once a day to your inbox. Each one takes 10–15 minutes.
No prior knowledge is needed, just a willingness to look honestly at your own patterns.
That said, I have to be very honest.
You'll have to do your part. The solution isn't complicated, but it requires consistency.
The first step is to identify the causes or rule out common problems before looking for solutions, which always exist.
By Day 6, you'll have a clear picture of what's driving your self-sabotage: where it comes from, what keeps it going, and what your way out looks like.
Finally Understand What's Going On.
And Your First Step Forward.
A free 6-video course with support materials and exercises
What you'll discover:
Day 1 - Your Key Moment: Identify the exact moment your pattern kicks in, and see it as a structure you can map, not "just the way I am."
Day 2 - The Loop: Understand the internal cycle keeping the pattern alive, and why your system triggers it before you've had a chance to think.
Day 3 - What Your Pattern Is Protecting: Every self-sabotage pattern has a reason. You'll begin to uncover what yours has been guarding, and why it once made sense.
Day 4 - The Root: Why surface-level fixes don't last, and how to work with the deeper layer that actually drives the behavior.
Day 5 - The Keys for Change: Discover what enables overcoming old patterns and sustaining healthier and more functional behaviors.
Day 6 - Your Way Out: Develop a roadmap for your way out of your patterns, based on your contex, and in the direction you want for yourself.
With each lesson you will have a workbook that will support you in your first steps recovering your self-trust, out of your pattern.
Testimonials from this Work
A deep sense of relief and clarity.
I feel grounded and trust myself while finally moving forward.
— How Clients describe it.
Melissa Koay
Consultant
I got to a permanent embodied feeling shift in my safety and security in myself, and because of that I was able to attract the healthy relationship. Now it is easy to show up in the way that I want to, healthy and securely, while being myself.
Sarah Welch
Teacher and musician
I used to get so frustrated very easily. But now that is gone. Now I see things coming and my emotions remain more balanced. It has helped me improve the relationship with my partner and work colleagues. I feel more confident and I now enjoy the small things in live.
G. K.
I always had a chip on my shoulder. I thought I was very analytical and high performing. But now I have my thoughts more on my side. I can perform better, take better decisions and feel more at ease.
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Why should you trust me, when I don't know you and have no idea where are you at?
My name is Carlos. For years I pushed through, performed, kept going. Underneath I felt disconnected, pulled back by reactions I didn't understand, cut off from the life I was supposedly building. But like many people with trauma, I struggled finding a solution.
When I finally worked on what was actually driving those patterns, something fundamental shifted. I rebuilt trust in myself. I developed the loving and supportive relationships I was looking for. I eventually became CEO of a maritime company, a dream that had felt completely out of reach while survival mode was running the show.
You don't heal by pushing harder. You heal by seeing, loving and understanding yourself first.
y life changed, that is why now I support others in clearing what holds them back. I hold a postgraduate degree in Psychotrauma and work with Identity-Oriented Psychotrauma Theory (IoPT), one of the gentlest and most effective approaches for trauma and CPTSD. A method that supports your nervous system, and reclaiming your freedom.
Common Questions
Is this about self-sabotage or trauma?
Both, and they're more connected than most people realize. The course helps you understand your pattern and discover whether something deeper might be driving it. For many people, that clarity is the first real answer to "why do I keep doing this?"
I've tried therapy before and it didn't help. Why would this be different?
If therapy helped you understand but didn't change how you react, that's very common. Traditional approaches work at the level of thought, but these patterns live in your subconscious. The approach I use works differently. The course will show you from Day 1.
I don't know if I have "trauma." Is this still for me?
Yes. Traumatizing experiences don't have to be dramatic. Chronic stress, feeling unseen, expectations you couldn't meet, relationships that weren't safe, these leave patterns too. If you recognize yourself above, or you are not sure where you pattern is coming from, this course is worth trying.
Why is it free?
I was once the person sabotaging myself. My goal is to help you understand your patterns and to be the person you think of when you're ready for deeper support. If it helps you and you never book a session, that's still a win.
The pattern has been there a long time.
You can start overcoming it today.
Conveniently receive a short, focused lesson each day, ensuring you integrate the content and break the cycle of self-sabotage.
You just have to be curious enough to take a step forward.
Finally Understand What's Going On.
And Your First Step Forward.
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